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the Earth
we can't
Planet Enough
forgot to love
you know or not
and no we're not going
so say how
today we've had good luck
and made our way
as best as we can
after some time when every song has been sung
I'm animated by the light of the sun
counting days is all we have
when we don't wake up
take me out of the chroma
as it spins on the axis sharpened corner
the tilt takes up its form as a ramification
after some time when every song has been sung
I'm animated by the light of the sun
counting days is all we have
when we don't wake up
take me out of the chroma
take me out of the chroma
take me out of this chroma
chroma coda to coma
I won't wake up from this coma
take me out of the chroma
I won't wake up from this chroma
chroma coda to coma
in color
if I wake
[March 1, 2011]
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once I've shared how I feel
then I don't feel it important
once I expressed what I saw from the inside
no point of you
I see you
in me I see you
everyone that walks past sadly
everything that I hated
that's the only words I have
I'm not sure what's out there to fear
more than standing next to you
double take
turn the tables
make a break
a quick escape
all metaphors have been reused
I see you
in me I see you
everyone that comes past sadly
everything that I hated
that's the only words I have
I go numb and I get speechless
when I get near this dangerous species
I grow dumb and I'm near deceased
(weakness in my knees)
opposites attract like feces
(to flies)
I get dumb and I get speechless
when I get near this dangerous species
I grow dumb and come to Jesus
[January 26, 2012]
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do you take your pills to make you feel less ill
do you take less stress do you need anything special
do you take your pills to make you feel less ill
don't feel any pain
bubble wrapped brain
or any kind of pain
without
there's a problem here
you'll never give it up
where you got them bones that won't form
and I have a club for "my bones don't form"
and I nailed them partly through my skin
take more pills to make you fit into this dress
take more pills to make you feel less ill
I take my pills to make me feel less killery
shit I believe I'm cured
and no more slurring
I'm steady
I'm insane
they called him mad
he got a sweet side
easy
try and free him
do you take more pills to make you feel less ill
do you take more pills to make you feel more ill
do you remember what you take
when you tell me that your sore feet ache
do you remember what you take
when you can't take it anymore
no more slurring
I'm steady
I'm insane
there arose a silence
do you take less breath to make you feel less ill
[May 31, 2013]
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I don't ask all the pertinent questions
I don't ask all the stupid questions I've got
don't know why
don't know
don't know why I'm still
it amazes me
and I don't really grow
and I have survived
I don't ask all the pertinent questions
I don't ask all the stupid questions I've got
don't know why
I don't know
don't know why I'm still
it amazes me
it amazed me
[November 30, 2008 - mp3 sourced real date unknown]
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I've got this soul beat hooking question
worn thin
maybe I'll look
maybe I'll find you
so important anyway
maybe I'll look
and maybe I'll find you
somehow
maybe I'll find that
I don't want
I never said I'd take the call
one thing this world can always say
I'd break them all (off) on my way there (here)
the hearts built like concrete
like sidewalks and streets
I've got this soul beat question
worn thin
if I look
will I find you
so important anyways
maybe I'll look
maybe I'll find you
so important anyways
I don't want
never said I'd take the call
there's one thing this world can say
I'd break them off on my way home
the hearts like concrete
sidewalks and streets
[March 9, 2009 - mix of mostly instrumental wav and mp3 vocal take]
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do you want to hit me in the face
or do you want to have a child
do you want to hit me in the face
or do you want to have a child
I don't know why you don't like me
I don't know why you won't let me
like you
I like you
you can have it both ways
burnt cake and eat it too
we all lose it
wish we hadn't had it
and it's probably not worth finding again
I don't know why you don't like me
I don't know why you won't let me
like you
just like you
I don't know why you don't like me
I don't know why you won't let me
like you
just like you
[April 9, 2012]
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compass telling me to keep on
I'm so old
but I'll tell ya
shit
but my aims' ain't dancing
comfort is an old friend
so we're patient
my mind doesn't work
I keep you running
I keep you running out
he couldn't take his own frustration
he's mumbling to me
I got to go
I got to go it alone
I keep you running
I keep you running out
keep
[July 22, 2007]
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no matter how much you get
you've asked for it
you've asked for it
the eyes know all that's wrong
and I
I don't blame
you
[October 18, 2008 - mp3 sourced]
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I said can't you mix mine
a little bit thicker
he looked at me right back
and said what's the matter
can't you handle your liquor
I turned my head and said no
it ain't nothing like that
I'll let you in on a little secret that goes
a little something like this
our bodies are made up
of eighty percent water
seven percent ain't
nothing but bullshit and wonder
I asked for something a bit stronger
a little bourbon and water
he said son you can't handle your liquor
I said I need a bit quicker fix tonight
before I break myself
it ain't nothing like that
I'll let you in on a little secret that goes
a little something like this
our bodies are made up
of eighty percent water
seven percent ain't
nothing but bullshit and squalor
and bullshit
I turned back over in bed
to put it off a little longer
I wrote a note to myself on my head
to admit that I wronged her
I never may be well again
it ain't nothing like that
I'll let you in on a little secret that goes
our bodies are made up
of eighty percent water
seven percent ain't
nothing but bullshit and squalor
[January 25, 2007 - mp3 sourced real date unknown]
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I tried to find you
its my vice it is
and I am only looking for a status
of how your soul is
just when I think I miss your smile
I get all lit up when I hear words from your lips
I hope you made your way to the party
that never ends
this never ends
god only knows
well he don't seem to be around to tell me
he don't have any answers
inside or beside myself its empty
I don't have any answers
and now I'll make my way to that party
that never ends
that never ends
I should've went
I should've went
I should've went
I should've went
I should have went
I should have went
[October 2, 2013]
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hate and greed are denominations
of a new currency
our dollar dreams can now be had for free
if you print them with disappearing ink
you're invited to the one man show
watch him play the world's smallest violin
remain seated and hold your applause
until the end
funny when I checked an atlas to see which direction
we were going or facing
I didn't see left or right listed
only east and west
how the west was won
was when the east was done
depleting
the new business plan
is selling parking tickets
one per person
redeemable in promised land
you're invited to a one man show
watch him play the world's smallest violin
remain seated and hold your applause
until the end
[January 2011 - song was later tracked with Dana for the unreleased Lost Songs album]
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traces drawn up from scars
replace all the sky and stars
I carry you on my arms
I'll carry you in my heart
and I won't ever go
its where I don't want to be
if I don't feel you there
then I just know I'm there alone
and I'll be
left to figure out
the last to figure out
what doesn't kill me
makes you farther out
but I won't ever go
its where I don't want to be
if I don't feel you there
I just know I'm there alone
and I'll be
[January 10, 2011 - the bridge melody for this song was borrowed from 'Don't Be A Stranger']
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the whole wide world's evil looking like a rusted nail
and I'm wielding a ten pound hammer
I'm heading down a dusty road in a wheel barrow
with the hired help of a Mexican handler
on a new mission with a global initiative
initially I had four initials that stand for
the lost soul cunt
it'd never take this long
I thought it'd never take this long
and I think I've heard this song
I think I've heard this song
and I'll catch my break in this sketchy place
as an old pink worn out eraser
pagans and horny housewife whores
aspiring to accumulate the paper
don't take stock in the wall street form
a vegas stake gamed
pure as papal
watching trains collide
take up a far position
as all the worlds wealth sees a redistribution
currently occurring
the culling of the so called nation
no it's just my imagination
it'd never take this long
I thought it'd never take this long
and I think I've heard this song
I think I've heard this song
maybe I'll catch a break as a dancer
in this sketchy place
covered in a an old pink human cancer
I jump and hope they have a net in hell
made by foxconn
I jump and hope they have a net in hell
made by foxconn
I just hope they have a net in hell
made by foxconn
I jump and hope they have a net in hell
made by foxconn
I just hope they have free wifi
and healthcare for Steve Jobs
(I'd go there)
if I wasn't going before then I definitely am now
[October 14, 2011 - song was later tracked with Dana for the unreleased Lost Songs album]
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on a mountain
mole hill
under cover
plain sight
martyr for the wrong
cower from what's right
it's dark
it's light
love what you don't have
give up all that you want
killing to give life
it's no more wrong than it is right
it's no different numb or feeling strife
it's not much of too much you can't take
there's no fault and we all place the blame
so insanely thoughtful
orated silence
sew your lips open
suture mind up tight
drained of lifeblood
transfusion
cold fusion by moonlight
help you fight with tied hands
behind the front of my back
it's no more wrong than it is right
it's no different numb or feeling strife
it's not much of too much you can't take
there's no fault and we all place the blame
[October 9, 2011]
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wine is blood and bread is toasted
impossibility
half salt and half a sugar
have some faith in me
I've got my cross to appease me
make me hang over
wake me up from this dream
help me pass over
wine is blood and bread is toasted
impossibilities
half salt and half a sugar
have some faith in blasphemy
I've got my cross to appease me
make me hang over
wake me up from this dream
help me pass over
I don't have toxicity
not in my soul oh no
I've got my cross to appease me
make me hang over
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it's a cold cold pyre
as every neighbor vein inflates in stereo
you make believe your name is Marigold
every day you pay another thing you owe
load it on up because you never know
it's a cold cold pyre
you have to believe it's the past now
you can't look back in the past now
you have to believe it's the past now
you can't believe
you can't believe
it's a cold cold pyre
hold on to a dear near death experience
it's a cold cold pyre
you have to believe it's the past now
you can't look back in the past now
here's your dear near life experience
here's your dear near life experience
here's your dear near life experience
here's your dear near life experience
[February 11, 2011 - mp3 sourced, song was later tracked with Dana for the unreleased Lost Songs album]
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an empire falls by the wayside, yeah
like a beach house on the seaside, yeah
one disease away
one disease away
come see the light
burning at night
the pile of books
and all the people
I'm not trying to be Mr. Right
I'm just trying to save all the people
and all the words that fill all the books
that burn to ash for crimes of evil
follow the scent of smoke
and the path will lead you right back
to Constantinople
this rerun film in black and white
has a meaning that's just as simple
one disease away
one disease away
come see the light
burning at night
the pile of books
and all the people
I'm not trying to be Mr. Right
I'm just trying to save all the people
and all the words that fill all the books
that burn to ash for crimes of evil
follow the scent of smoke
and the path will lead you right back
to Constantinople
the knowledge that's the most contagious
must be purposefully spread thin
the knowledge that's the most contagious
must be purposefully contended
to the end
[January 19, 2011]
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[December 2010 - song was later tracked with Dana for the unreleased Lost Songs album]
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written off like a check that can't cash
overdrawn like a modern sitcom cartoon
I'm nothing but an American caricature
iconoclastic
all that practicing to seem perfect
perfect
all that practicing to seem perfect
to seem perfect
lost it's charm
like an arm of a drummer
in an 80's metal band
power ballads
all that practicing to seem perfect
perfect
all that practicing to seem perfect
to seem perfect
lost it's charm
like a mother who smothers her own retarded brother
in hopes he has a better life
reborn as her baby
[September 23, 2008 - mp3 sourced]
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sometimes I wake up with
a song that's in my head
and I think I'm not so sure
I can play you one
that's all a memory of
a solid memory of
its all in memory of my mind
its all in memory of
a solid memory of
its all in memory of my mind
like someone set a snare
for top tier talent
and I'm sitting in a tree stand
god damn it
you know we're all just waiting
I know we're all just dreaming
its all in memory of
its all in memory of
its all in memory of my mind
its all in memory of
a solid memory of
its all in memory of my mind
shoveling shit inside of holes in brain scans
it shouldn't be the sheer size of this
same old contagions
holding hands inside of holes in brain scans
you shouldn't be communicating disease
[February 2010]
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I'm not afraid of falling off
I'm not afraid of falling in
only you really know what I'm fearing
the only way out
door's locked
and I'm beating
and I'm beating
the only doorway out is blocked
and I'm not leaving
not leaving
in my phase of search
this is not a rescue its recovery
absent
blessed
god damned
its all the same to me
best of luck to the unborn man
in this carnival after me
the distorted mirrors on the carousel of hell
aren't all that they've cracked up to be
but I've hit my head on
the noble neon exit sign
losing its mercury
if darkness is as safe as it gets
I'm as safe as you could be
put a hold on the glow in the dark fish
and all the cigarette smoke that I breathe
poke a little hole in my heart
to leak out brass novelties
a plastic mold takes the place of my brain space
I can't make up my mind
in my phase of search
this is not a rescue its recovery
absent
blessed
god damned
its all the same to me
best of luck to the unborn man
in this carnival after me
distorted mirrors on the carousel of hell
aren't all that they've cracked up to be
but I've hit my head on
the noble neon exit sign
losing its mercury
[April 5, 2011]
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waiting for the day
that we all wake up in the same bed
waiting while the clock's stuck
for a new day
and I'll wind up
now you dig inside my head
I don't know how long I can keep waiting
need this time
[a break away]
I don't care if I don't
ever see the sun of a new day
[April 12, 2007 - mp3 sourced]
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I want you to pay close attention
as the numbers appear in this picture
there's importance
some somewhere
and I wonder how long it takes to collapse
infrastructurally
the effects have been seen
all that needs to be seen
is destruction
I suppose I'll have another drink
it's been two whole weeks
since you picked up something
[March 16, 2009 - mp3 sourced]
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we might be disintegrated
we could get incinerated
I'm just waiting for our common sense
to take over
we could catch a new flu plague
our population overstayed
I'm just as likely to be slayed at a sleepover
we might miss the best on this side
we might be hit by a bus right in a rush by
late to pick up this crazy guy
that planned a massacre of all of us
we could all be concentrated
black hole swallowed
complicated concepts
or a ticket to a four seat forum
for us du jour
cosmic rays from outer space
a reptilian tea drinking race
I'm just waiting for common sense
to take over
we might miss the best on this side
we might be hit by a bus right in a rush by
late to pick up this crazy guy
that planned a massacre of all of us
[September 19, 2012]
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I wish Henry Rollins was my dad
but I'm not sad he's not because
I can be punk as fuck as him
without getting mad at things
as much as he does
I wish Patti Smith was my mom or sister
but I won't miss her if she's not because
I'd probably come out looking as bad ass
as Iggy Pop does
the stooges aren't everything
and the sex pistols aren't all they claim
I got more integrity in my two thumbs
they're opposable
if I could have an uncle Lou
I'd hope his name is Lou Reed
just like the one in Velvet Underground
but he'd probably shoot dope
smack me around
and lead me down the road
to bad things
Moe Tucker wasn't male
[August 21, 2007]
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I can't get right even the simplest of things
like a love song
I get high off the easiest things
like Lysol
to combat it
I can't write even the littlest things
like a Pine Sol
you don't smile
have a smile so sweet
it's the last time I saw
to combat it
I can't write even the simplest things
like a love song
I get high off the easiest things
like Lysol
to combat it
[November 18, 2008 - mp3 sourced]
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they switch the lights when you're asleep
tried so hard you cannot see em
as they want you make believe
the silence stopped they cannot breath
and I'm gone
they switch the lights when you're asleep
they've got the powers to kill your dreams
you'll hear words like food and disease
they've missed the tune
break down to me
and I'm gone
start itching paying attention
pay attention to the leaf
you'll find out what you wanted to seek
you try so hard wait patiently
the future is full of futility
and I'm gone
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did your mother teach you how to share
I don't think she cared
she don't care
what's yours is mine
what's mine is yours
what's yours is mine
the choice is yours
I never learned how to be kind
my life is on rewind
I don't think I care
I just don't think I care
I just don't think I could care any less
I just don't think I could care any less
I just don't think I could care any less
what's yours is yours
what's mine is mine
what's yours is yours
was kind of mine
what's yours is yours
what's mine is mine
[December 7, 2007 - mp3 sourced]
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they say to use this restroom
they say its just suggestion
I know I got my own mind made up about it
and I know
I don't know what it's like
to live fifteen minutes ago
I know what its like to live like a ghost
they say we should eat our vegetables
they say its just suggestion
I know I've got my own mind made up about it
came to conclusion on my own
I don't know what it's like
to live fifteen minutes ago
I know what its like to live like a ghost
this is a ghost speaking
here in the ghost world
we do whatever we want
and we build everything with thought
until we're hungry
and we dream of meat
and it exists
so that we'd make a sandwich
I'd like to share a sandwich with you
a sandwich of knowledge
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it shakes me from inside out
your shocks through the medium of my skin
the bricks that we lay for our lay in
the ideas placed into my head
it shakes me from all that I am
if I ever get out I will see you
in this time or another
hopefully more than illusion
and I swear
my words as good as the paper they're written on
[February 25, 2008 - mp3 sourced]
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[September 11, 2008 - mp3 sourced]
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words are blank innovation
is it work to you at all
blast your way to observation
laceration is so god damned
harsh
you want time
it's a guess of mine
it ain't the first time it ain't the best time
owed
with no weight
I'd rather it to be
I'll send you off with the best of me
home
taking chances like a call again
would you answer the phone again
talked so long I had to go
you want time
against time
you wanted the best time
paid down
caked in
saturation
I just feel elation
heal my cancer
can't see much past my serration
or my blade of mental sharpening
sharpened
you want time
it's a guess of mine
it ain't the best time
if it ain't the best time
[September 13, 2008 - mp3 sourced]
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sitting around thinking
of all the things I didn't accomplish
to the cracks and pops and vinyl nuances
that fill the room and my headphones
when all I've got is my headphones
at most symbiotic
by George I think we got it
engrained at a young age
to cry out for a bottle
it is no surprise that we find in it some comfort
glass is half full
glass is emptied out
of coke and southern comfort
at most symbiotic
by George I think we've got it
fiddle fiddle fiddle
while Rome burns
neurotic Nero was a little under the weather
or psychotic
burning men for the light
burning men for the light
we are not measured by what we accomplish
half of us would never be acknowledged
just say "It's too late"
and overtaken by neurosis
at most symbiotic
by George I think we got it
fiddle fiddle fiddle
while Rome burns
neurotic Nero was a little under the weather
or psychotic
burning men for the light
burning men for the light
burning men for the light
I'm burning them for the light
I'm burning them for the light
I'm burning them for the light
I'm burning them for the light
[January 2, 2012]
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hello again my friend
its good to see you
how much I've missed you
and its no longer a problem
since you're back in my life
and completed the picture
of what was
a photograph lacking a subject
for the light to shine on
and all the light it shines on everything
that I never noticed
once again its all about
if pain worked
didn't have a thought
I never sought to make him say aloud
hello again
my particulate reflective invisible friend
its been awhile
and it's gonna be a long long while
til I get back to my self
so lets have a conversation
about how the waves propagate
to form any word
and the opening of your mouth
in your mind
in your minds eye
and once again
its all about you
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have you ever been picked up so high
that you could not catch your breath
have you ever been let down so fast
that you hit ground before your head
and realized
that you might find an equation
between the gravity
of what's real
and what's a part of a desperate cling
to conception
even though you're just a piece of paper
until you piss your name on a wall
have you ever got picked up so high
that the blood rushed to your head
have you ever got let down so fast
that you hit ground before you're dead
and realized
that you might find an equation
between the gravity
of what's real
and what's a part of a desperate cling
to conception
do you concede yourself to just a piece of paper
or do you piss your name on a wall
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I never got real far
I never tried too hard
I never drove a car
legally I never wanted to
basically I never wanted to
do you mind
if I'm not finding my mind
a worthy subject
for analysis
psychoanalyze this
I've been paralyzed by the sense of grief
guilt
tears away at me
everyday it glares back at me
all I need's this
all I need is
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you let me in on your confidence
and I broke you
you let me off on incompetence
and I broke you down
down
you had a hold on your suffering
I hoped you
you can infringe on all of this
I hoped you
down
[April 6, 2008 - mp3 sourced]
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aka another acoustic
[November / December 2010]
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maybe I'll try to please you another way
baby I'll try to please you another way
but one things for sure
I'm not going to say a word
not another word
no I'll never say
for you to take the wrong way
I'm not gonna say
not another word
for you to take the wrong way
and I'm just tired
and I'm alive
I'm just tired
I want to fall into you
babe you look so pretty to me in my sleep
you don't slap my hand in my sleep
maybe I'll try to leave before you're awake
baby I'll try to leave before you're awake
one thing's for sure
I'm not gonna say a word
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I fell and hit my bone
I spilled some marrow
I fell and hit my bone
and spilled some marrow
I fell and hit my bone
I spilled some marrow
and you don't know why
you feel the need to deceive
I don't know why
I feel the need to deceive
and I don't know why
you feel the need to deceive
and I don't know why
we feel the need
I hit my head
and spilled some common sense
I hit my heart
and bled innocence
I hit my head
and lost all sense of senses
senseless senses
and you don't know why
you feel the need to deceive
I don't know why
I feel the need to deceive
and I don't know why
you feel the need to deceive
and I don't know why
we feel the need
[January 13, 2012 - mp3 sourced]
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a cracked up crying mess ashamed
a two way mirror above the sink
you're cordially invited
morally obliged, I've spoken
broken and bankrupt
a friend is a person you make up
a bed is a place where you wake up
a drug is a thing you take more of
in place of all the above
its homelessness in the truest sense
uncomfortable within your own skin
cauterize the hole where your heart was
with a magnifying glass and the light of the sun
a friend is a person you make up
a bed is a place where you wake up
a drug is a thing you take more of
in place of all the above
written on your head is fucked in red
backwards
it's a miracle you're even standing
just nod once if you can hear me
blink twice if you can feel anything at all
a friend is a person you make up
a bed is a place where you wake up
a drug is a thing you take more of
in place of all the above
morally broken and bankrupt
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she had no summer
because the kids were
so mean about the
health inspection
it's just a way to pass sunlight
it's just a means to pass summer
safe behind screened in doors and porches
with the Ray-Ban sunglasses
and a darkness
it's just a way to pass sunlight
it's just a way to pass summer
it's just a way to pass out
no she's not dead yet
but the doctor said that
she's white as a ghost
it's just a way to pass sunlight
it's just a way to pass summer
it's just a way to pass out
it's just a way to pass
light
[April 9, 2009 - mp3 sourced]
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I hope I have a little girl
so she can hide in small places
I hope I have a little boy
who's will is good
if I don't I don't want to have anyone
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you might think you've had enough
but you don't understand
down is up
the bottoms in
the top is ending
so which is it
we might sink
we might swim
we might float around
[we might finally be]
at the top of the bottle
maybe it's the best time to [sell]
save ourselves
before we don't have any value
mark
mark to myth
myth to value
don't really know where I'm going with this
but I'm going without you
we might sink
we might swim
we might float around
[we might finally be]
at the top of the bottom
maybe it's the best time to sell ourselves
before we don't have any value
[October 16, 2008 - mp3 sourced]
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I needed friends
but you steered your ship away from me
quartz clockwork beats in time
counting you down to quit
it's not a junk shop
and I'm not about to buy your shit
because your girl quit
as if we need to make a vitamin
to grow eyes on our backs
and see the sharp objects stuck in them
like thumbtacks or an axe
over a sign that says kick me
you've kicked me once
shame on you
kick me twice
and I won't get kicked again
I need a rope but you keep throwing me strands of it
lost out at sea as if the lighthouse was candle lit
worn more days than a junk shop clothes second hand outfit
that don't fit
as if we need to make a vitamin
to grow eyes on our backs
and see the sharp objects stuck in them
like thumbtacks or an axe
over a sign that says kick me
you've kicked me once
shame on you
have kicked me twice
and I hope that I won't get kicked again
[April 2011]
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these eyes are no longer the same eyes
these eyes are very cloudy and impatient
as they make their way
they jump from their place
to seek a real shelter
the gaze is misleading
the rest is just cover space
meant to throw off their suspicions
and that asshole behind the counter
doesn't know what you're talking about
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hate it so much
when I can't use so much discourse
so much more than we
so strong we could
I can see you from the corner
I am bailing out on bother
I'll never make it up to you
I've got all this sundry
don't know how to take in
a fake chorus change
we all make
an honest mistake in
watching idly from the corner
I am bailing out on bother
I'll never make it up to you though
I've got all this laundry
[December 13, 2009 - song was later tracked with Dana for the unreleased Lost Songs album]
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to be here I gave nothing
another heir to nothing
to be feared forgive nothing
to be feared forgive nothing
there's only so much they can grow out of
in this little fish tank
there's only so many hours in a day
who cares anyway
to be here I gave nothing
the only other heir to nothing
it wasn't wasted was it
it wasn't wasted was it
there's only so much they can grow out of
in this little fish tank
there's only so many hours in a day
who cares anyway
I'm not the only heir to nothing
and I don't care anyway
[February 20, 2012]
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I had a dream I was singing your song
only it wasn't a dream
as we drove through a scene
of intense obscured imagery
imagination aids
and I'd really like to hold your hand
but it's an impossible physicality
when atoms always have space between them
but share electrons
if I was a train engine
I'd have to let you conduct me
because I'd be too engaged
in the passive aggressive sound
of my train whistle
I'm looking for
more words
a language I can speak
now the tablets they've all got screens
rock paper scissors score
no need for pencils anymore
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when I wake
it don't seem right
I want to see light
will I see light
I want to see light
will I see light
if I see light
when I see light
it didn't seem right
it doesn't seem right
when I wake
it doesn't seem right
am I telling you wrong
whatever you want
wherever you go
whatever seemed wrong
whatever seemed wrong
it never seemed right
can never do wrong
skin me right
down to my soul
admit my fault
know that you're my favorite
[November 20, 2013]
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I'm in debted and inundated
and a little antiquated
slowly slowing down
turn our pockets out
trade them into pawn
its our golden age
we've been sold on the hand me downs
but the time comes for us to leave this town
when its not like what they told you how
when its not like what they told you how
two winding arms
spinning around
spiral out
pull me in
into the moonlight
inch by inch
I don't mind to watch the paint dry
we've been sold on the hand me downs
but the time comes for us to leave this town
when its not like what they told you how
when its not like what they told you how
it hit me like a ton of bricks
I'm still in shock
god I'm never to recover
I'm always in recovery
a functioning tragic freak
rolling off the frequency
one thing led to another see
it made me be another me
this one had more impatience too
more patients than a doctor sees
more seasons than a seasoning
or more lines of sight than nine eyes can see
one eye for each life
[November 15, 2011]
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and there you go falling in love
you never were too likable
and me down in my own abyss
where I drown like a bug
I bang my head
and I've been here before
I made my bed
and I loved her before
I never wanted all of you
never wanted more abuse
put me down like a dog
then add me
damn likable
I bang my head
and I've been here before
I made my bed
and I loved her before
will you try to swim
will you try to sink
what will you try to make it to the middle for
will you try to make me drown
when the last time your wishes had a metaphor
birds of a feather flock together
we can wish ourselves into another form
if you're terrified of flying
a narrow miss and here I am
an arrow went straight into your heart
I drip unto you love was written on her wrist
you never can be serious though
you never can be serious
no
I made my bed
and I'll lie in it
[October 16, 2013 - mp3 sourced]
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I went and saw a movie
in my mind
got a large popcorn
and mike and ikes
for free
there is a price
but it's not listed anywhere
anywhere
free
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it evolved from a planet of gas
we have all presumed wrong our path
where all our people gasp
as the demon laps us in secret
they call it the sound of the past
all you hear is the voice I never had
when every sound collapsed into an Orion field
I saw the planet of gas
as the dark and horror spread
oh the appetite you can have
when you hunger for sound
you know how often you appear too easy
when all you hear is nirvana
when your planet ended left as a seed
as if it was a plan of the ground
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instrumental
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I can't accept this big head spin
I can't accept this big head spin
I can't expect it to sink in
I can't
[July 15, 2009 - mp3 sourced]
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blessed soul
eternal burning flame
catatonic when I hear your name
and I thought that I heard you
and I thought that I heard you say
I'm not so far away
[song was later tracked with Dana for the unreleased Lost Songs album]
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unplugged electric instrumental
[October 22, 2010]
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unplugged electric instrumental
[December 15, 2010 - mp3 sourced - song was later tracked with Dana for the unreleased Lost Songs album]
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acoustic instrumental
[December 2010]
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acoustic instrumental phone recording
[August 23, 2013]
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I'm allergic to your cat
but you don't mean a thing
I don't want to come over to your house
I don't want to have to
and I always forget
and never retain
it's never worth it
it's never worth it
I'm allergic to your cat
it don't mean a fucking thing
I don't want to come to your house
I don't even care about
I never remember
I can't retain
it's never worth it
it's never worth it
I always forget
can not retain
it's never worth it
it's never worth it
I don't care if it's in
I don't care to play
and I don't care for you to hear me
and I don't care for me to say
[January 7, 2013]
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this isn't going where you think
it's going to end because that would make me
predictable
this isn't going to end where you think
because that would make me unfriend you
this isn't going where you think
it's going to end because that would make me lose
and I'll be damned whether it don't or do
this isn't going where you think
it's going to end because that would be too soon
this isn't going to end where you think
because it's just the beginning of your undoing
this isn't going where you think
it's going to end because that would be
a little soon and I'm making it go on
a bit longer than you anticipate
and I'll be damned whether it don't or do
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acoustic instrumental phone recording
[September 17, 2012]
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you shall seek before you can define
do you try gasoline and build a fire
practice what you preach before you can decide
do not go try
laugh if you want I know its fear inside
I'm not counting tears so under a face I'll hide
they'll be crying Mussolini on the side
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sometimes when I write
blame myself
hear me out
that night
that I died
it feels like
god it can't get any lower
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rotorootamatic
rotorootamatic
rotorootamatic
Rotoroota
I can't flush it
I can't rush it
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you don't do enough for the common welfare
it's not enough to serve like a slave servant
it's all wrapped up at the end of the evening
said enough
you don't do enough to ensure the common welfare
when folks have it enough they throw their hands up in the air
it's all tied up at the end of the evening
said enough
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we do as we do
without ever a thought to
before we arrive to where we depart
we grow in spite of the place that we came to
go it alone but never apart
free like the will
not freedom the hand out
just minted into existence
southern hospitality
from ninety thousand leagues below the ground
where its hot
does this world always gotta be so cruel
and contradictory
its not right to lead you back down the path
I'm not right to bother
southern hospitality
from a million miles below the ground
where its hot
dead to this world
and falls in front of a truck so peacefully
bury it out in a beautiful place
I will bury it out in a beautiful place
some southern hospitality
a million nautical miles from the bottom of the deepest sea
you see
well that's where you'll find me
swimming laps eternally
in a lake of fire
so peacefully
so peacefully
its not right to take you back down that path
I'm not right to bother
its not right to take you back down that path
I'm not one to bother
[December 12, 2011]
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holy Moses
scoliosis
carcinomas on the brain
travel leaving
college dreaming
carried out on the trade
I'm not like everyone
and I'm not going out like that
I'm not going out like that
I'm not with a crowd like that
I'm not going out like that
sing out everyone
in another dream
sing out everyone
in the new light
sing out everyone
in the new dream
seeing everyone in a new light
baby genius
colic deepens
the grayed roots into the brain
building blocks into a tower
of incoherent babbling
and I'm not like everyone
and I'm not going out like that
I'm not going out like that
I'm not with a crowd like that
I'm not with a crowd like that
I'm not going out like that
seeing everyone
in another dream
seeing everyone
in a new light
sing out everyone
into the drink
sing out everyone
in the new light
seeing everyone
in another dream
seeing everyone
in a new light
sing out everyone
into the drink
sing out everyone
in the new light
I'm not going out like that
I'm not going out like that
I'm not with a crowd like that
I'm not going out like that
I'm not like this and that
or this
I miss being like that
I miss being like that
I miss being like that
[November 9, 2011]
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she had the power
to change their way
[January 30, 2012]
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instrumental
[July 27, 2009 - song was later tracked with Dana for the unreleased Lost Songs album and then by myself for the 80 Dollars And No Sense album]
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when the apocalypse is looming closer
and mother nature's month has sprung
let's save Minnesota
or let's say North Dakota
come out to play
???
[December 3, 2009 - mostly instrumental wav combined with mp3 vocal take]
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if you're so afraid
I'm not going away
I will run away
I will starve to death
you can't find me
you can't fight it
you can't hide it
if you're so afraid
I'm not going away
I will run away
I will start today
[August 28, 2013 - originally written with Dave and Luke]
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released September 22, 2015
