I'm not afraid of falling off
I'm not afraid of falling in
only you really know what I'm fearing
the only way out
door's locked
and I'm beating
and I'm beating
the only doorway out is blocked
and I'm not leaving
not leaving

in my phase of search
this is not a rescue its recovery
absent
blessed
god damned
its all the same to me
best of luck to the unborn man
in this carnival after me
the distorted mirrors on the carousel of hell
aren't all that they've cracked up to be
but I've hit my head on
the noble neon exit sign
losing its mercury

if darkness is as safe as it gets
I'm as safe as you could be
put a hold on the glow in the dark fish
and all the cigarette smoke that I breathe
poke a little hole in my heart
to leak out brass novelties
a plastic mold takes the place of my brain space
I can't make up my mind

in my phase of search
this is not a rescue its recovery
absent
blessed
god damned
its all the same to me
best of luck to the unborn man
in this carnival after me
distorted mirrors on the carousel of hell
aren't all that they've cracked up to be
but I've hit my head on
the noble neon exit sign
losing its mercury

[April 5, 2011]